urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:flawedarchetype - Anne Boleyn flawedarchetype 2008-02-28T02:07:17Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:flawedarchetype:4527 2008-02-28T02:07:17Z 2008-02-28T02:07:17Z A long list of activities<br />once filled my waking hours;<br />Now I get to bed early and wake actually rested.<br />I relied on the green & white siren<br />to get me through;<br />Now I go without the substance she peddles<br />in practically every town in this nation.<br />The desires of others controlled my actions<br />and left me with little choice but to trust in their experience;<br />Now I am master of my own mind.<br />All that I did for others<br />and that I neglected for myself<br />makes me realize the gift of true self-control. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:flawedarchetype:4339 2008-01-07T02:10:06Z 2008-01-07T02:10:06Z Funny how time changes feelings<br />I feel no different than before<br />And I realize it has been years since my heart flipped for you<br />Years<br />I do not need to ask where the time has gone<br />What I find amazing is that the whole time<br />While beating in my chest<br />My heart has healed<br />I still smile when thinking of you<br />I find no fault in my private happiness<br />But no longer do I linger on what ifs<br />I am happy for myself<br />Thought I take no credit for my recovery<br />Miraculous workings of the human heart and mind<br />Make it possible to wake up every morning urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:flawedarchetype:4004 2007-01-18T05:51:06Z 2007-01-18T05:51:06Z Everyone knows the flip of the stomach<br />that comes upon the sight of one<br />who has been so close<br />I just didn't expect to feel it<br />when you came around the corner urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:flawedarchetype:3723 2007-01-17T06:16:55Z 2007-01-17T06:16:55Z Stepping out of character proves exhilarating and mind-bending<br />And not as reputation-searing as I thought it might urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:flawedarchetype:3565 2006-11-21T05:00:02Z 2006-11-21T05:00:02Z Rampant misunderstandings rule the world. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:flawedarchetype:3125 2006-10-23T00:46:34Z 2006-10-23T00:48:39Z I hardly wonder what you're doing<br />out in the middle of nowhere<br />pretending to be happy<br />loving her from afar<br />Sometimes she speaks of you<br />and I know she's wondering<br />what I'm thinking when I hear your name<br />I would tell you to<br />try someone new<br />but I know how difficult<br />opening up can be<br />especially for you<br />Though it took me less than <br />no time to get to you -a credit<br />to our similar nature and<br />sense of humor<br />You cannot be as happy as she says she is<br />Continue to tell her whatever it is you whisper<br />to keep her so wrapped up and in love<br />Know that she will never leave you<br />and you can live happily ever after<br />I know you think of me as I think of you<br />and we'll both smile and think of love lost urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:flawedarchetype:2902 2006-10-23T00:40:56Z 2006-10-23T00:40:56Z Void of impressions<br />Or information upon which to act<br />Trying something new<br />Is more trouble than it's worth<br />In particular<br />Interpersonalemotionallydrainingunreciprocated<br />relationships urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:flawedarchetype:2591 2006-07-26T00:30:11Z 2006-07-26T00:30:11Z My muse<br />whomever he or she may be<br />has taken a leave of absense<br />and moved on to greener pastures<br />to benefit one who is more prolific<br />and can use the inspiration<br />to benefit humanity. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:flawedarchetype:2509 2006-05-10T00:37:56Z 2006-05-10T00:37:56Z When the skin between my toes<br />becomes a little sweaty from<br />too much time trapped in shoes<br />I like to scrunch up my toes in my<br />cotton sheets and twist the cloth around <br />each toe to feel the webbing stretch<br />It reminds me of a midafternoon nap<br />As soon as I graduated from feety pajamas<br />with the tummy pinching zippers<br />(That was the first time my mother told me to "suck it in" <br />and she's been saying it ever since -<br />she probably wishes corsets were still in style)<br />I remember twisting my sheets around my toes<br />feeling like a big kid with cold feet urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:flawedarchetype:2261 2006-05-01T22:26:48Z 2006-05-01T22:48:05Z I still have the urge to blurt out<br />Look what you did! See how I hurt!<br />I feel my heart thrashing against my ribs<br />like a sandpiper captured by six year old<br />cretins.<br />It has been a long while now<br />since the natural time to speak of things<br />has passed<br />and it is a sorry state of things<br />that I consider you a friend<br />but cannot bring myself to cause you<br />such discomfort and instead<br />choose to wallow in my dismay.<br />I can see myself years from now<br />meeting you on the street<br />stopping for a cup of coffee and a chat.<br />I say to you<br />Look what you did! See how I hurt!<br />And you say you know<br />and that you're sorry<br />and you pay for my coffee. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:flawedarchetype:1866 2006-04-30T20:38:38Z 2006-04-30T20:38:38Z The tension between my shoulders<br />is beginning to seep into my life<br />It seems to trail behind me<br />infecting enemies and friends alike<br />so that I almost cannot distinguish<br />one from another<br />I must have a knack for the awkward<br />and unpleasant and confrontation<br />As every interaction between myself<br />and another breathing soul<br />is tainted with a mark of resentment urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:flawedarchetype:1665 2006-02-14T20:40:00Z 2006-02-14T20:40:00Z Sleep Deprivation<br />Is not a friend of mine urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:flawedarchetype:1319 2006-01-22T00:33:11Z 2006-01-22T00:33:11Z I really do not want to argue with you<br />You were amazing and beautiful<br />Before I realized you insist on <br />Having every word that leaves your lips<br />Be the correct answer<br />Even when it is not<br />You always start a sentence <br />With the word no<br />Which does not help you make friends<br />Or keep old ones<br />I am quiet because I do not want to argue<br />With a once-was friend urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:flawedarchetype:1223 2006-01-19T05:16:51Z 2006-01-19T05:17:37Z Create yourself<br />(She's an original)<br />Think of it as a<br />Lifelong assignment<br />Given at your birth<br />And assessed at your death<br />(He was good people)<br />Become who you are<br />Though you don't know who that is<br />Yet<br />Maybe you'll never know<br />Maybe you'll one day know<br />(Post-midlife crisis, perhaps)<br />Maybe you know now<br />There's no text on <br />Becoming you<br />Just guts and brains and heart<br />And other people<br />(A peanut gallery)<br />Who refuse to stick to their own assignment<br />And forever look over your shoulder<br />Trudge on<br />Little pupil<br />Though you may never reach an answer<br />(And even if you do<br />You may not know it)<br />We cannot simply be<br />And so <br />Create urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:flawedarchetype:1009 2006-01-17T20:16:15Z 2006-01-17T20:16:15Z Not every time I pass you<br />But almost every time<br />I want to grab you and <br />Shake you<br />Snap your senses in and out of place<br />In hopes that you'll realize<br />What you've done<br />I know you didn't mean to<br />Cause me harm<br />Still<br />I cannot help but think that<br />You are someone who should<br />And does<br />Notice their impact on others<br />I could be wrong<br />But not this time urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:flawedarchetype:649 2005-11-23T03:18:15Z 2005-11-23T03:18:15Z Look a little closer<br />You will see that<br />I would be good for (to) you <br />That I am<br />Good for you<br />Give the gatekeeper the night off<br />(Give me a touch)<br />As the "windows to your soul"<br />Are lately foggy<br />(We were moving forward<br />I woke with thrills<br />And slept with a smile<br />Believing that my optimism<br />Was grounded in reality)<br />Now life is lingering between<br />Those constant continuums<br />Misery and happiness